October 31, 2018
I was thinking the past couple of days about my bucket list. Then, for some weird reason, I started thinking about the things I don’t have to worry about doing if I believe the statistics.
- I won’t be buying any houses anytime soon. I haven’t owned a house since 1991. I just don’t see myself going crazy putting away enough cash for down payment and moving into a place I might only be able to enjoy for a couple of years. Yeah, I know other people do, but for where I’m at right now, it’s not in my cards.
- Getting a dog or three. They’re a lot of work. I barely have the energy these days to take care of myself and all the things that go with that. I don’t have enough left to take care of another living thing. Yes, I could adopt an older dog, but I think that, for me, would be too heartbreaking. I have enough heartache right now that I can’t see adding to it, so… I’ll keep borrowing my friend’s dogs for a week or so and that will be enough.
- Getting married again. The idea of dating after 50 was daunting enough to keep me out of the pool for the past couple of years. Dating after 50 with cancer seems like an exercise in futility. We’ll see… maybe I’ll meet some awesome guy in the next year that just blows my socks off and will stick through this nightmare of cancer with me. I can only hope he exists.
- Buying a new vehicle. My truck is coming up on 5 years old this year. It’s got low mileage and I still like it, and I take care of it. I drove my Highlander for 9 years before I traded it for my current vehicle. The main reason for this, though, is that I don’t see myself taking on a car payment just cuz the truck is 5 years old. It’s not worth it. It wouldn’t be even without the cancer, really.
- Traveling Abroad. I had wanted to take my niece & nephew to Ireland, Germany, Switzerland and Austria. I haven’t been well enough or had enough energy to even think about this. Now, I’ve got problems with my vision that I’m not sure how I’d even start to deal with in a foreign country. However, this isn’t completely out of the question yet. I’m hoping my eyes are more stable by summer. One day at a time.